My tears have been my food
day and night,
while people say to me all day long,
“Where is your God?”-Psalm 42:3, NIV
Back around the time of my divorce, I remember distinctly traveling a section of a major US highway and thinking to myself how I just wanted things back to “normal.”
I had traveled this stretch of road with my ex in the past. So, I bet some of the feelings were triggered by that fact. The pain of the marriage ending was still so “all present.”
I just wanted the pain to end.
The fantasy–as it was–that I could just snap back to the way things were was the gist of the desire in my heart. I knew–even in the moment–it was a fantasy.
This was all part of the grief process.
I write these words to encourage those of you who find yourself weary of all the pain that comes with divorcing a cheater. It DOES get better!
That fantasy of snapping back to the way things were is not uncommon. It really is just a sign that you are grieving, and that is to be expected.
Be kind to yourself. Know even these hard feelings will pass. And you DO have a future!
I did not know what my future would hold at that time on the road. Now, I look back after nearly a decade, and I am so full of gratitude for the life I have now!
God is faithful. God is good. Trust Him.
