“My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?”
-Matthew 27:46b, KJV
When I was struggling the most, these words from Jesus brought me the greatest comfort.
They were reminders to me that God understood the pain and suffering that I was enduring. He could relate.
Jesus understands what it meant to suffer unjustly.
Jesus understands the feeling of betrayal.
Jesus understands how awful the felt absence of God’s presence is.
Trust me:
When you are in those valleys, you do not want an aloof God. You want someone–like Jesus–who “can relate.”
That is why I am a Christian today.
Jesus was with me even–maybe especially–during the times when I felt abandoned by God.
Dear DM,
I am struggling with these very feelings. Does God love me, why does this hurt so bad, if you hate adultery and I am the faithful spouse why does it feel like my life is shredded apart?
My ex-husband tells me you weren’t perfect, you didn’t do everything right. Logically speaking I think no I didn’t but I didn’t go out and have an affair either.
This is so hard it does feel at times like God has turned his back on me.
24 and counting
24 and counting,
I can relate. It helps to know that Jesus can relate as well. That does not change the injustice of it all, but know you are not alone and not crazy to think this. God can handle your pain and lament.
-DM
Yes, nothing in my life has been more painful! The fact that your ex-husband is not repenting, but is blaming you (dumping the shared responsibility lie on you) adds to the pain.
Like DM and others have said, it does get better. Like you, i wondered why I felt like God had abandoned me. I prayed & cried out to God, but I could not read the Bible like I used to. I could only focuse on scriptures full of His promises. The most comfort came to me with the assurance that the blood of Jesus is enough to cover everything that pertains to me (and you)!
I had a burden lifted off of me when I went up front for prayer at my new church in a new state. The guest speaker called me by name and said X’s name when he prayed for me & then told me that I was not responsible for “X name”‘s deep rooted sin! I had not shared any information with him or my then husband’s name with anyone. I’d like to assure you of the same thing – you are not responsible for your exhusband’s sin(s) or the divorce!
I’ll be praying for you today 24+!