Instead of your shame
you will receive a double portion,
and instead of disgrace
you will rejoice in your inheritance.-Isaiah 61:7a, NIV
It gets better…
When in the depths of the darkness, it is hard to imagine the pain ever ending. The thought of a life without the person who became one with you in marriage is truly and deeply painful.
At least, it was for me…
And yet, one day the pain subsided. The clouds of fear dissipated. And I felt hope.
God made good on His promise of the double portion for me.
I do not know when that day will come for you. They did not issue working crystal balls at seminary for us. I cannot see into your future.
However, I can testify to what God has done in my life:
He has transformed the hopeless, pitch darkness into bright noon-day sunshine!
And if God did that for me, He can do that for you. Don’t give up. Betting on God and righteousness is a good bet.
In the end–even if you feel otherwise now–God does not abandon His children.
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*A version of this post ran previously.
I know I should trust God, but after four decades of marriage my “Christian” husband abandoned me for another woman. That was four years ago and life is still a sad struggle. When does the sun shine again? My ex husband and his mistress/wife are the ones who appear “happy” and “blessed”. I’m trying to have hope. Thank you for your blog.
I wish I could give you the exact date. But I do encourage you that it is coming….
Also, part of why it is so hard is the depths of what you lost. It makes sense that it is taking a lot of time to grieve. 40 years is a lot of investment. That is an understatement.
Wish I could do more to bring you comfort. Know that we serve the weeping God who weeps with us through these losses. He knows injustice and knows the pain of sitting through the losses of such injustice.